More stress...

Today, I took our van to get it 'checked' ... boy was I thinking silly. After I waited nearly 3 hours, I found out some pretty interesting news. To make a long story short, I need to pay the amount I bought the van for in order to fix it and keep it going in the future. Unfortunately, my opinion remains that it is not worth the money spent on it because it has well over 200,000 miles. Now, we have a whole new set of issues to deal with. Rigth now we have an outrageous rent that we have to pay that consumes almost completely my dh's paycheck. We are pretty sure we will be moving this month but I am not to keen to move just because we will be breaking the lease. However, I realize we made a mistake to move into such a big house and now we need to downsize. Until Friday, I will be beyond stressed starting tomorrow... sooo ...for now... so long! :)  This is how I feel atm:

"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing."
Helen Keller

Love,
Jenn

Busy days

Today was kinda busy for me. I am exhausted if that means anything. I got a late start today by getting up around 9ish but didn't really do anything until around 11am. Then ... I had to get ready and be at an event called 2nd Sunday. I promised a few months back that I would volunteer for the event and was happy to do so. After I did this event for over 4 hours, my dh and I went to the next city over to visit his mom and watch dexter. This has become almost a ritual for us because it is the only time we really get to visit with his mom. However, it is a tad bit awkward being there especially with everything that has happened lately. She doesn't really 'want' us to visit her but my dh is very persistant. I love him because he is such a good person. He is everything that I could have dreamed of for a wonderful husband but he is the icing on the cake. More than I could have ever dreamed of.... (not to say he is perfect for fear he get a big head) :)  Anyways... I have a busy day ahead of me tomorrow.  Lots of stuff to do. For now, I will leave you with a quote:

"Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can." - Author Unknown

Love,
Jenn

Finally

Today has been a good day. My dh finally heard back from an important job interview. However, they did not offer him a job which is okay but they did want to know if he was still interested in the job. We will hopefully know if he has a job in a couple weeks. This prospect frustrates me greatly. I am getting ready to graduate in December and I can't decide on where and when to apply for jobs or graduate. My entire future basically depends on this job. I do have plans for both ways ... if we end up having to move or if we stay where we are. I am really tired and have a lot of homework to do the next few days. On Saturday, I start volunteering at the hospital which should be a lot of fun. Then, on Sunday I volunteer with an agent at the extension office for a huge event called 2nd Sunday. So, I have a very busy weekend. Besides all the volunteering, I have to clean the house, spend time with my dh and do tons of homework. I am in a Religion course this semester which will ultimately kick my butt. I have a 5-7 page paper due next friday along with literature review for my senior research project. I am such a horrible procrastinator. Today, I feel almost stress free though. My hubby always finds time to cuddle with me and that is probably our most time consuming activity. Hmm... maybe it SHOULD be exercising. I am basically at a standstill on my weight. I would love to at least lose 30 lbs before December. But ... who knows??? ... maybe more if I ever get started losing it! Well... dh is going to blow up if I don't get in there to finish our movie. :)

Quote of the day:

Only the educated are free.
       - Epictetus 

Love, 
Jenn

Mountain Day

Today was mountain day where I attend college. This has been an okay day for me. My dh had to work most of the day and so I wasn't able to relax and hang out with him. However, I did get a lot done on our house. I 'cleaned' the house which means i picked up the trash and did dishes. I even vacuumed... :). My dh and I are on the same page when it comes to house cleaning and stuff. It is low priority and as long as we are not walking over trash and clothes as we walk through the house, we are okay with our house not being spotless. I really needed to get a lot more homework and research done for school but none of that happened. Tomorrow, I have work for 5-6 hours and then I have some assignments that are done on Friday that I will work on. I have gained so much weight since I got married... and I have been working to lose it but it's not going quite as I expected it to go. When I first started college, I gained a few pounds but I was always able to use it really quickly. Since, I got married... it has been a nightmare. I have worked my butt off in the gym with no results. It's frustrating. I'm thinking that I need to find some way to increase my metabolism. Well, I really would like to keep this up, but I need some sleep. My dh is ready for bed as well although he doesn't have to get up tomorrow for anything.



Quote for the day:


"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. "

~ Franklin D. Roosevelt

Love,
Jenn

Stressed to the max

Okay. This blog will kind of stand as my vent palace. At this very moment i feel completely stressed out. Firstly, I am a senior in college and will graduate in December. Therefore, I am worried about what will happen when I am out of college and if I will be able to find a decent job. I am also married to an amazing man who shares my ambition and drive for life. We both have issues to work through and we both have a long ways to go before being perfect but we love each other very much. My dad is currently in the last stage of COPD and is able to get out of bed for just a few minutes at a time. He has always worked so hard in this life and I am so thankful for him being my dad. My husband's grandfather had a heart attack and there are several issues going on there as well. My husband's grandmother (on his dad's side) had something happen in her brain and so things are going on there as well. There seems to be everything going on all the time. Besides all this, my beliefs are changing. I came to Berea college and was a very conservative christian girl and I don't know what I am anymore. I never thought I would experience this in a million years. I am thankful for my college education and would never take a step backwards to change anything. I have decided that I don't need to know every little thing about what I beleive but that I can just figure it out as I go along. I am not worried anymore if someone will disaprove of me for what I believe because I am who I am because of where I have been and where I come from. I am very proud of the fact that I was born and raised in Appalachia. I was raised in a small town with a large crazy family that I love.

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”

Love,
Jenn